Writing this blog is one of the most hardest write up I have to make.It has always been a big help for me to to let mt emotions out. I know myself well more than anyone else. I have my own decisions and beliefs. I may be sensitive but this is who I am. I am not scared to let other people know who am I. I cry a lot but it doesn't mean that am weak nor scared. I cry because I am not ashamed to shed those tears down from cheeks and say what ever I want to say. I am just being real. When I am hurt, I am not scared to admit that I am hurt. For me, it is natural. Getting hurt is one of the process when your in love. It is already a part of it. I am proud of myself because no matter how life hits me I am not afraid nor scared to face it. I'd rather admit all than to lie.
When I start to say "I love you" I mean every letters of it. I only say I love you to people who I care a lot. But saying sorry was one of the hardest word for me to say. But then, he came along and taught me that saying sorry is not admitting your mistakes but just being real and humble to release your pride. Honestly, I have always kept that in my heart. I have never thought that as time goes by I would definitely learn something new from all the people that I have meet. Each and everyone has made a different mark in my life. Some had taught me some things while others has just touched my life even though they wasn't aware of it.
I never thought that I would fell in love this much. When I met him, he showed me a lot of things that for me it was something magical. Happiness is something that can't be brought by money. It is something that I really care about. Being happy is important to me. Sometimes, I find myself thinking all the things I did before even the things that I have said to him and I realize "Yes, he made cry but still I love him" that's for real. I learned that when you love someone sorry is not necessary. you may get mad at him for awhile but he doesn't need to say "I am sorry" just forgive him. As long as both of you understands each other. That is enough. For me, that's a real compassionate love.
Friends will always be a part of my life. They are the ones who lends their shoulders for me to cry on without hesitations. Friends that knows me so much and will never judge me for who I am. They are the ones whom I share my victory and my failure. Thank you for all those things.
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